sitting in silent. moving my fingers all over the keyboard.

i was unable to sleep tonight.. i decided to listen to this song from her blog Be My Only..dunno by who. The lyrics was just what i wanna say to you. How everyday i pray we'll be good together, to grow old together, to have our hands holding each other till its boneless, to love till its the end of world.

Angela, yes i'am so afraid of losing you. I hate goodbyes. I hate it when you have to say it.

Yes i love you. No matter how many thousand times i told, it can't show how..i guess i'll just have to show for the rest of my life.

Anytime when i was upset, moody or sad..and you came dancing in my head, it seem to be ok. Really..it feels like everything is going to be ok. I never felt this before though i've love before..but with you, the presence of this feeling was just positively weird. (:

Remember our dream.. what we shared.. remember our dream..remember us. i love you Angela Ooi Poh Chin.

-your smelliest socks <3

Saya dan Dia.

ini kisah pasal saya dan dia. (:

satu hari yang bosan dan biasa aku lalu, on Fb. Aku buka wall dia (terjumpa dari kwn lama). Dia goodlooking and attract aku tapi aku anggap just the looks sebab..ya laa..cantik kan mustahil lah aku boleh tefikir mau tackle dia terus.. hahaha. So, aku try approach dia.."hi!!" aku cakap..tapi dia terus off9.. begitu lah hampir berminggu2. Then sampai ke hari yang dia mula balas aku..aku pun "hehehehehhhh" then after weeks just talking through the computer, aku rasa mau jumpa dia. ntah apa la kan tiba2 mau jumpa la pulak..

Then aku minta number dia..dgn niat yang just mau something else than just fb chat. hahaha. And perasaan yang sama mau jumpa dia jugak!! after months, aku decide utk figure out apa benda ni..and just maybe aku suka dia..JUST MAYBE.

Sampai lah satu hari tu..dia hilang..

aku jadi bingung..blurr..and tidak tenang..

and i guess yea i don't wanna lose this girl.

suka dia ka? ntah la..tapi..mau dia dekat saja..

after a month dlm dilema, aku bagitau dia..aku suka dia. Tapi macam tu ja lah. Ignored. Sedih la tapi apa la kan..just suka, bukan apa pun. haha.

We get closer each day, my feeling grows. She seem to like me too. Tapi dia never mention.

Habis SPM, aku ke KK. Dgn kawan2 aku dengan tujuan attending interview UiTM dan terjumpa dia! (speechless, she's beautiful..) we get to watch movie, play arcade and hang out for a while.. and yea I'am so sure i like her.

Weeks after that, aku pergi sandakan jumpa dia lagi. dr ptg sampai ke mlm dgn dia..and i remember at Balin, on the rooftop..slices of pizza and drinks, aku rasa sejuk..macam mau demam. I took her hand and i lie my head on a pillow wanting to feel the comfort. I hole her hand till we're in a car and i drive back to my place and she went off..i guess i want her..yea..i want her.. im just not that sure why..

A week before pegi PLKN di Tawau, aku pegi Sandakan lagi, mau jumpa dia. Its a 4 days of summer. We watch movie, driving to nowhere, walking on the busy streets..all i see is her. And the day utk aku pulang ke Ld pun tiba..i was waiting for the bus utk jalan and sementara tu aku duduk di bus stop dgn dia where i hold her hand..for the first time she hold mine back.

i love you.. (but i'm not sure if thats what u want from me..)

The night before aku pegi plkn..we had a very long talk through the phone..she told me..she likes me too..i was the happiest guy ever since.

3 weeks di plkn, UiTM panggil aku..after a month di UiTM, dia sambung study..di CosmoPoint. Aku dan dia hangout during free times, and the night aku propose dia, dia nangis and speechless. Aku takut untuk dgr tidak..and rush myself to the bus..rasa hancur, rasa loser, rasa bodoh..then through the phone she say yes..rasa hebat, rasa bibir aku dr telinga ke telinga.. (:

Hey! the story aren't end yet..she loves me. She wants me too. Appreciating that, and the love we shared, i'am loving her too..till now..and after. (: i love you.

i love you Angela. (:

soft songs take turn.

kepala mcm ada roller coaster yang tidak pandai berenti walaupun sudah suntuk masa nya.

so terpaksa lah melayan roller coaster. ;|

i missed home. the moment to wake up and seeing mom cooking, watering her plants, tidy the house.. and i sit there infront of the Tv..while my dad is on his way home.

i'am missing those days mom would just keep talking on how i should stand on my own two feet with the worries on her face born of love..the love of her is the purest i'll ever have..her sincerity of love is the most amazing feelings ever. how most all the things she did is just to see her childs live a good life..

dad..he works his days off, he knew its time for him to sit home and enjoy his days.. but he never stop. he just wouldn't let his child feel any burden. his love is golden..

i missed home not for the easy life i was living..not for the "everyday is holiday" thing..but those people who used to be around me all those time..their anger, their smiles, their laughter..don't seem to have any of that here..its just not the same.

i'll be home soon. mom and dad..you did a lot for me..

none would ever done things like you did..you're the most amazing person ever been in my life..

let me know you love me today..and the day after..so i know you still wake up the same. (:

those words from your lips does make me feel okay. please know.

sudah lama tidak tulis di sini..

sibuk memanjang..kelas sana sini. assignment bukan byk tp kelas padat berabis.
sampai terabai blog nih. Asal ada masa pun mesti mau rehat, mau tidur.
Hari ni lah kelas mlm ja. hee. so ada masa mau tulis menulus di sini. (:

sepanjang masa ni,

• eyh, aku belum cerita kan..aku ada gf suda. ^_^yaaaaa..how? nda mau lah cerita. kamikami jak la tau. muahahahaha.

• even sudah lambat berminggu-minggu, Selamat Berpuasa! Selamat berjimat cermat juga.

• final exam x lama lagik, lepas cuti raya nih. fuhhh..

oke la tuh.. suda la..lapar nih. mau tidur. ;D

words are worthless.

i'am sorry to everyone i misbehaved with..for words that are inappropriate..

i'am sorry for my lack of goodness.

for friends i took for granted.my fault.

sukup sukup sukup.

(:

couldn't wait for you to fall for me..but i would. (:

aku bukan baik sangat..bukan alim sangat..tp aku tau hidup ni bukan lama. dunia ni tidak secantik syurga. aku masih tau agama aku.

fitnah terbesar..yang digilai ramai..

aku bingung sangat..He told us..He warned us about this..

but we don't even try to see..don't even try to open these eyes..

bila minum arak, rasa hebat..rasa rock....

bila buat sex, rasa modern..kononnya untung..

bila pergi clubbing, rasa power..rasa cun..

bila pergi gigs lompat sana sini sampai hilang akal, rasa metallll..rasa hensem..

bila solat..malu..ketawakan..lawak..kuno.

bila baca al-Quran..rasa ketinggalan..

x payah ckp yg itu la..BILA BACA DOA MAKAN PUN! sengih2 org tgk kau..

bila tolong org tua lintas jalan, org ckp kau minta puji..berlagak..

ITU LAH TUUU..NAMPAK KA?? ITU LAH DIA FITNAH TERBESAR!! ITU LAH FITNAH DAJAL! BODOH!

kau expect mau tgk dajal turun dari langit mcm dlm tv tu? mau tgk dia turun then pegi tmpat kau bisik2 ajak buat maksiat baru kau mau nampak? klu mcm tu x payah la Dia warning kita kan? klu begitu lah, xkan la rmi org ikut dajal tu kan?

kita tau itu salah, tp kita rasa itu lah hidup..itu fitnah dia..buka mata..

tadah tangan, mohon utk diberi kekuatan..ditunjukkan jalan, dilindungi iman..dijauhkan dari kesesatan.. amiin.

SYEIKH IMRAN HOSSEIN.

he came to UiTM. giving a talk..alhamdulillah to have gain something from this man.

talk about dajjal, palestine, riba, war, end of world, jesus.

Most ineresting speech i've attended. (:

skateboard. rindu kan sama aku? hahahahahahahha.. ya ya.. nti kita main k? mmmmuah!

THE BLA BLA BLA.

Baru seja habis ceramah..byk la cerita dia..

sekolah buruk la..sikap la..family la..partpart parents, rmi yg menangis weh!

sedih la kan kalau ingat bakik pernah lawan parents..memberontak..

tengok ada org yang sudah tiada ayah..tiada mak..tp aku muka keras ja..

dua titik jak mata aku curah..bukan la sombong apa..

tp memang mcm itu. memang nda biasa mau bagi tunjuk perasaan sedih. berusaha aku tahan,

balikbalik jugak bertakung dlm mata aku ingat parents aku..

tu org bagi talk punya main emosi! siap marahmarah pulak. aisehmen..

just tergelak sikit..'hee..'

dia punya respon, sampai main tunjuktunjuk..siap dengan ayat mengugut pulak la..

adehh..sandii.

last2 tau jugak dia minta maaf. hahahahahaha.

tu laaaaa..kalau mau marah fikir dulu bro. guna otak kalau mau sound org. -____-

tapi antara apa yang dia sampaikan tu memang ada isi.

3 jam woooo..boleh buasir wooooo..hahahah!

bah, mau tidur. malas mau komen suda. ;D

bye2. (:

this one..

i cared so much..and wishing someone would care about me too..

and i showed i care..while wishing someone showed me they do too..

i show i love..and wanting to see someone show me they do too..

and i've been waiting..and waiting.. and i still am..

just if you could see how much you mean to me..

just wishing you care..that's all..

blackest night with the brightest moon.

when night falls, and moon shines..

and its always you in my head. (:

she's the woman i know would always be the best in my entire life..

she have the most comforting shoulder i would cry on..

she have the best smile i know would make me feel better..

she have the sweetest word to make me feel love..

her anger is always a loving..

her love is always a life..

her hand is the softest touch on my head..

she's my mom..the best woman none can replace. <3

babi kan kalau jalan kaki panaspanas..naik bukit..serious babi.

just a second..!

just before i went to my bed and have a great sleep..

could you all be happy tomorrow? could you smile and just feel good on anything?

and would you please give up on hating..

we're not too perfect to blame..and we're not that good to judge..

so am i.. goodnight fellas.

the feelings to love only one girl is the best any boy would ever have.

p.s ; she's not just a summer, she's every seasons. (:

for every real men, there's a secret beneath their strength.

a boy never think too far..

a boy never think for any coincidence..

easy saying, a boy never really care of their future..

but the ghost of those people these boys love, give them strength to have the best future any boy could ever have.

how would my mom live under my guards?

how would my wife go to shop if i have none in my pocket?

what would my child eat if i myself couldn't get any for my stomach?

what would my dad feel if i'am not a proud man?

and true men wouldn't be as selfish as fuck..

p.s ; we're not always a boy..we'll once be a men.

Assignment memang begini ka? memang begini kaaaa?? ;/

-______________________________________________-

the best! -__-'

i thanks Allah for giving me the best sister i know i could ever have. (: happy birthday sister!

p.s ; number account bha mana? cmana saya maw bank in niii..hahahah!

just you! (:

but we could float if thats what you wants..

i don't to know what life would be..

if you ever wanted to go..

and we're squeezing them into our cups..

and drinking it up..

and girl you're my sun shiny day..

you take my life away if you ever wanted to go..

but we can't break out..

if thats what you wants..

but they can't shine like you can shine..

and i hope you'll never leave..

you're the scrap to my knee..

than better could ever be..

homesick.

..i'm 18..i've grown..hey i used to want this..

but now, i really wish i was a little boy.. hey i've grown..its not fun at all..

i'am so different than who i'am 10 years ago..i don't shave..i sleep between my parents..and i pee on the bed..and i always wish on growing up fast..

and i've grown now..its not like i'd imagine..

i missed home, i missed my sister, i missed my brothers, i missed my dad, i missed my mom..

i love you all. (;

p.s; cherish your home moment..you'll want them..

hello hello hello hi.. (;

the way we act towards each other..the way we speak..i was thinking.. hey, let's make believe.

Tonight..

i seriously missing you..

just if i could see you for a second tonight..would be ok..

goodnight.. (;

here in UiTM..

oke la..best jugak..mula2 ni kan belum byk lagi assignment ka apa..hahah. jadi kira oke lagi la..

and semua org pun bes..so far oke la semua org..friendly.

sini ada pundan, ada skaters, ada bookworm, ada businessman, ada musician..mcm2 la org di sini..

roommate aku,

Paan..kadang2 diam2..kadang2 jadi buduh.. hahaha!!

Dikin..okeeeee seja..nda pndi mara punya org..lek ja dia nih..

Faz..mcm hang2 sikit..tp oke la..dia pndi blur2 bha. hhahahaha..

diorang semua ni pun antara member rapat aku dlm campus ni..

member lain..

Fazril, mmg satu kepala la bha..sot2 jugak...hahah!

Azad..satu kelas..nda ku paham ni org..kuat skip class..tp ada timing jadi rajin.

Tanker..tagap ni org ooo..ngam la sama nama dia..

Charlie.. ... (paling diam..dlm 24jam, 10 ayat ja keluar mulut dia..) ..

Nelson.. kwn skate..actually kenal sebelum UiTM lagi..gigs..FB..

Guru..(ya mmg itu la nama nya) CS, laptop, game!! itu seja..gila2 jugak..

ramai laik bha..tapi ni la yg rapat sama aku..heheheh

si buduh yg dari tadika sama aku tu la paling!..Azri yang bunchit..hahahaha..dari tadika dia ikut aku..wakakakakakk!

Lecturer..bes..Mr. Haleeb, Mr. Franklin, Mrs. ULing2, Miss Nowyannie, yg lain nda ku igt nama diorang..hahahahahah..

selesa la sini..yg susah tu transport la..mau pegi kelas susah..kadang2 tiada bas..kena jalan kaki tgh hari..panas..keringat..tu jak la yg sandi..

hari ni ada masa sebab esok tiada kelas. HO HO HO!! eh! kamu yang ada kelas tu pegi la tidur sana..babai..hahahaha.

plkn..3 bulan jadi 3 minggu. and UiTM lagi sandi dari PLKN!

sedang mula mau seronok di sana..tiba2 dapat tawaran dari uitm.

Diploma Pentadbiran Awam..mmg yg aku mau..

mau x mau terpaksa lah aku keluar dari plkn. tapi kena panggil lagi balik nti..

hahaha. lol. that's just the procedure. and i don't want to get back in..not while im 25 y.o. -___-'

so dalam plkn, mula da rasa bes..kelas, mkn rmi2, lepak di bilik, besukan jam 5 pagi tu yg x bes..

sampai masa yg aku mau keluar da tu ada la pulak member2 satu bilik yg mencurahkan air mata.

ada yang dr awal macho, tiba2 bekaca2 mata dia..adehhh..

aku tidak la..lek jaaa..

so hari ni, aku di UiTM..tengah mengurus pendaftaran and stuff..perghh sakit kepala ooh..

senang lagi daftar plkn..bg nama, ic, cek health, bagi block, selesai.

yang iniii...mau bayar pun kena print apa segala barang dr internet la..

mau buat akaun di segala bagai bank la..

mau tengok sijil2 laaa..slip spm laa..surat tawaran laa..mcm2 la bha di minta..

aku nda paham jugak motif tuh..tp ikut seja la..and mmg bingung la..

sudaa la rambut satu inci jak tinggal..otak aku macam mau lagi kasi gugur rambut..kindets.

actually org lain start kelas since kemarin lagi..aku hari ni pun belum sure lagi dpt start..

bahan2 yg diperlukan seperti aku ckp diatas tu belum lagi aku sediakan..sudah sebenarnya..tp tetinggal di Ld.. muahahaha..

insyallah hari ni smpi la tuh..and siap la semua urusan..esok aku masuk lah kelas. ok?

;D

3 months

bukan masa yang lama..tapi 3 months..many things could happen..

while aku terperuk dlm area separa ASKAR. -,-

yup, esok..15 Mei aku jalan..baru jak td prepare barang2 mau di bawa..

confirm punya la rindu mau lepak2 sama kwn2 buduh aku..

confirm lah rindu fb aku..kindet..

confirm lah rindu tumblr..;/

blogging..fuhhh..

skate lagi!! aduuuii..sandi nya..

so ini entry terakhir la nih utk 3 bulan ni.. ;D

aku amek positif jak la..masuk sana, mau senang hati..hahaha.

mula2 tau kena pilih tu mcm kecewa nih..

rambut potong, kawad, cuci baju, bgn awal, share room, toilet, waaaa -____-

tp then mls suda mau pikir macam2..i'll just step in..and go with the flow..and step out..

grab my life back. ;D

p/s : hope bila aku keluar nti, benda bodoh yang happening sekarang tiada lagi..jadi boleh la pikir masalah lain..ini asyik2 lakon layar jak..bagus kalau bes..aku tgk mcm bongok ja..serious. respect yourself klu mau others respect. age is not a reason to respect..you got to earn. (;

p/s : you, i'll be missing you too. you're not mine but i'm already scared of losing you. really.

Sandakan.

the best moment i had. (;

next monday sy pergi plkn sudaa..so jalan2 la sekejap..pilih sandakan..

kenapa?

sebab sana luas klu mau jln2..better than twu..kk byk bajet kena guna..

sebab sana ada oldtown..mee curry bes!

sebab sana ada tour guide..hahaha. she's there. (;

lots of things we did there..

smpi ada rasa x mau pulang..hahahaha.

ckp panjang2 pun..x dpt describe how great it feels..so..

p/s : i'll come back.. i missed you too. you knew its true.. (:

under the stars.

there's too many stars in the sky, but they can't shine like you can shine..

and i hope that you never leave..

-better than better could ever be

girls never thought they're pretty enough..haha.

THHHHHHHHHOR.

best!! lambat ka saya tgk? yalaaaa..LD manada cinema..

-___-

tp ada laik yg belum tgk kan? hahahah! naaa naaa naa..best bah! bagus kamu pigi tgk la..

mls saya mau cerita..nda mahal juak bha tiket..jgn lukik bha..

ada lawan2, ada emo2, ada lucu2, ada la lagi..

tgk la k? pigi lah tgk sana. bye.. ;D

WTF...palis2.

kenapa title aku begitu?

cuba kamu google "budak sekolah" dengan safe search yang moderate..

klik image. WTF. klu ada 10, 7 lucah jak..siap baju sekolah lagi.

baju seragam budak sekolah MALAYSIA.

wow.. hahahaha.

oke..bikin sakit mata seja.. tumblr lah dulu. byebye. (;

psssst hey you.

thanks for wanting me close too..

p/s ; as long as you know i'm around.. (:

every girls wants a prince..but not every guy is a prince.

HERE in LAHAD DATU. YA AKU SUDAH SAMPAI.

jam dekat dekat jam 1 pagi sampai rumah semalam. best best tengok bilik..

tiba tiba kucing aku , Mojo leher dia infected baring baring di katil..belubang leher dia. banyak berabis ulat. *masi idup yaa..

panic jugak la. payah aku mau tidur tu mlm.

rupanya dia baru balik rumah tu mlm. hari ni tadi pagi suda bawa pegi jumpa doctor.

ada sudah ubat nya. oke la tuh nanti. ;D

OH YA! jumpa suda MP3 aku. HO HO HO!

Suara macam robot baru siap.

MILES AWAY la ni punya angkara..hahahaha!

teriak teriak punya pasal, suara aku jadi macam robot.

tapi setakat suara robot apa la sangat bah..dibandingkan kalau dengan nda dapat tengok MILES AWAY.

HA HAAA A HA! *ketawa robot rosak suda.

wishing one day you would turn to me when i'm standing alone.

can't lie myself.

having the thoughts like..it was just me..

its always been that way. its always just me. i seem to be a 'laughed at' character here now.

hahahaha.

not saying that i don't deserve it. but it hit from the inside.

the taste of volt running to my heart. phew..

i was always trying to be strong..proof is, i'm still trying.

and as an average boy i do felt like giving up sometimes..

the thought of the one girl doesn't really want you around..and are just being polite.

less talk..it'll be ok on it's own.

gudnite.

mandi beramai ramai.

jangan dulu pikir bukan bukan!

BORNEO HARDCORE FEST IV!!!

dengan opening act dari 28 DAYS LATER, best!

lepas tu band DESTRUCTION ZERO band dari Kuching, Sarawak.

then DISCRIMINATION FREE.

..continued by much more local band!!

sampai la THY BROKEN CHORDS bawa lagu kegemaran aku, All Hope Remains Dead *berabis SYIOK!!!

then BLEED THIS SKYLINE took stage..POWER!

and MILES AWAY pun mula bersedia..DAMN best!!

situ la yang paling berabis babi siok dia. GHOSTWRITER bha diorang bawa opening!

sing along nda putus aku!! nda suda aku tgk org kiri kanan aku. kena bodyslam aku pedulikan seja.

next song diorang aku nda berapa hafal..nah..di situ la aku bemosh segala silat ku keluar. wahahahahahahah!!

circle pit pun di kasi bah..nda ku kisah suda time tu. penat ku nda ku tau suda macamana.

tapi badan ku macam nda bole berenti bha. hahahahah!!

kawan aku yang babat.. Azri bodyslam terus. Aku pun dihantam nya jugak. hahahahah! sial.

suda la aku ni kecik seja. nipis juak aku oh sana. tp dapat juak la aku rembat mic. HO HO HO!

"these are the things that i don't want you to hear!!"

salah satu part lirik yg ku ingat aku dpt mic. hahahahaha! *excited beb time tuh.

melebih lebih ka teruja ku ni? -,-

peduli la..yang penting memang best la!

mandi peluh beramai ramai. hahahahah!! kiri kanan jadi kawan..

pengajaran nya..MILES AWAY memang best!!

bukan diorang jak..semua band pun best!

thanks H.A.T.I RECORDS for bringing these guys to us!!

yeaaaah!! WE WANT MORE! GIVE US MORE!

a certain friend.

i don't know where i get this strength from..

i don't have any idea..

but i'd never grow tired to hear you laugh. your voice. just you.

this may sound funny but for all the night i had conversation with you, for all the morning we wake up together though from end to end of the line..

it makes me feel like the time never pass..or never really move..

and my passion for you still burns brightly.

i'll always pray to have a heart to love a girl..till she become a woman..till she become a wife..till she become a mom..till she become grandmother..till her life or mine, ended.

that kind of love, i seek.

kawan aku yg paling suka buat muka sial! HA HA HA!!

kalau dia mara kan..muka jadi begini..

;[]

kalau dia begetek kan..dia jadi begini..

(=

kalau dia serius dia jadi begini..

:/

yang penting babi la mukak nya. mau ketawa sak aku. bikin mati ni org..HA HA HA HA HA HA!!

aku nda paham la ada kunun bilang muka nya mcm org dewasa..ibu ku sendiri pun sama..

serius aku nda paham!

si babi.. hahahah!!

paling jambu bha gambar. wkakakakakakaka!! zaman2 dia minat KPOP.

ku tunggu esok tiba. (:

BERLAGAK KAYA DI PALM SQUARE. HA HA HA HA!!

punya begaya kami di palm square..

cerita kuat2 lagi kunun lusa mau pigi singapore..

pigi parking lot begaya mau kena ambik driver. siap mara mara buat fake call.

HA HA HA!! padahal wallet behabuk suda.

tengok kiri kanan semua jalan sama pasangan.

perghh!

macam jadi trend suda ada couple.

ada yg nangka sama apple, ada yg apple sama apple..betaburan!

p;s. tadi kami teserempak sama ESCAPE THE FATE!! HA HA HA!

1B..CP..WARISAN..HOME.

jam 12 suda jln pigi 1b. TIDAK SALAH BAS SUDAA..JGN KAU KETAWA SANA.

tengok kasut seja. kasi kwn si kingkong. Penat pusing2, jumpa jugak kasut nya..

yay! kasut baru suda..oke, pigi CP. *mau buat apa ya? jln2 ja la kan?

si kingkong cari tali kasut lagik.

jalaaaaaan~.

jumpa!

WARISAN. *big apple. lepak lepak.

suda mau pengsan jadi mau balik suda. jumpa si AJIQ! kingkong lagi satu.

rambut dia bha femes. rock n roll gitu..

duduk duduk sama pijal, ijan sama ada satu org tu kwn dorang.

cerita cerita la sekejap.

nah sekarang, di sini..depan laptop paling jambu didunia. (:

okeh..sekarang... hmmm *mandi, tidur, ntah apa lagi..

bye. ;D

BREAKFAST WITH PILLOW.

Paling bejalan la ni hari. -,-

ketawa sendiri kami bah. kalau kamu tau la macamana. kamu kutuk jugak kami ni.

HA HA HA!

begaya gaya suda. sampai merasa diri cukup hansam suda. pigi 1B.

ambik bas la ni di terminal wawasan. kelam kabut nampak city bus mau jalan suda.

malas bha mau tunggu tunggu lagi. jadi kami naik seja la.

suda separuh jalan baru tau itu bas PERGI TELIPOK!

jelas terpampang di depan "TELIPOK - RIA"

punya la besar biji mata kami. macam mata munyit cacat suda.

mcm ini ↓

dekat dekat stesen bas inanam kami turun, ambik bas pergi balik terminal wawasan.

jadi niat pergi 1B pun pudar. -,-

biasa laaaa..JALAN JALAN KAAAAAN. HA HA HA!!!

RIO. best punya cerita.

Aku tengok Rio di CP tadi. sama kwn king kong aku.

yang aku belajar kan..burung sama burung semua saling support kecuali satu ekor seja.

satu ekor tu penjahat. buruk muka nya. kanibal. berlagak.

kalau dikaitkan dgn manusia, ramai yg sama macam burung penjaat tu. kaum sendiri dia baham.

jgn jadi burung jahat aaa?! hahaha.

bagus kamu tengok ni cepat! hihihi. best!

i wanna be your friend..and i wanna be more. honest me. and i wanna be more.. and i wanna be more..yes i wanna be more.

i thought i'm a bit different than them. my fault.

just a bit. i don't expect entirely and i mean a bit different in me..from your sight..

but i'd never expect you would hate it though..

maybe you would be proud for when i let you know how beautiful you really are to me..

maybe you would be having a smile to know..

maybe you would deny but still you feel good..

but what we expect wouldn't always be what we get. right?

hey yea its kinda true i guess..what's expected wont hurt..what's not expected hurt.

it is clearly my mess..my head is always wrong..everytime i felt joy..something is always there to remind me that it's just me. it's always in my head. in my mind. i tried to control my thought..

i failed..always. i'm sorry.

but still, i wanted you to know how beautiful you are.

how peaceful you made me feel..how quiet the feeling is.

you don't like it..you won't like it. but that is how. thanks..and sorry.

hahahaha. budak kecik yg berlagak tahan psycho.

ada ka patut suru aku tgk porno gay?

bukan 1 kali..bekali2. aku nda tau apa motif nya..suda la mukak belagak. gay lagi.

hahahahaha. lucu bha aku ni budak. aku bagus2 sama dia buat sial pulak dia.

kan suda kenak kasi malu. femes la tu di LD. LEGEND la dia klu d LD suda.

hahahahah!

NEKAD LA SUDA AKU.

aku mau macbeth matthew!! black/grey!

kindet berabis cair hati ku tgk tu kasut..

ngam2 sekarang kering suda..baru beli seluar..-,-

nti tunggu ibubapa ku yg ku sayang dtg baru aku minta duit lagi. HO HO HO!!

3 DAYS TO GO!

apa mau buat ni? apa ya?

pergi tgk skateboard, pegi tgk kasut, baju..

gigs.

skatepark!

balik. (:

download seja sesuka hati. YAY! (:

I LIKED YOU BETTER DEAD! << click!!

PENAT TAHAP ULTRAMAN KALAH SAMA RAKSAKSA.

sampai KK tadi jam 6 lebih. straight pegi Karamunsing..beli brg pesanan uncle aku.

smpi ruma abg aku jam 8 gitu..then jumpa la sama yasmine wahidah! anak buah aku yg paling hyper! (:

habis dia gusti aku nda henti2..si Azri nih main "iya2" seja..

aku la yg berabis kenak ole dia..main patung2 la..main tembak2 la..

sekarang baru dia berenti. penat suda. hahaha.

LAMA KA NDA UPDATE? HA HA HA!

iya2..mau update la ni...nti petang. ;D

uinah!! miles away. SIAL SEMATTTT~

ON SEJA LAAAA~

kalau kwn lama, susa betul kau oo..

kalau kwn baru, laju kau bro..hahaha.

nda la aku kecik hati ka apa..sap aku pun byk kwn bha. (:

sedang bingung dengan shoutbox.. -,-

tawaran tingkatan 6 bila keluar ya?

klu dpt awal, boleh lambai tangan dgn PLKN. ;D

when everything change, we'll always stay the same.

bila kau sakit hati..cuba fikir hati org lain.. (:

i wanna keep her just for myself if i could. but would she wanna keep me too..if she could.

"FOREX" macam siok!! baru mau belajar..naaaa..cepat la aku kaya ni..AMIIIIN.. ;D

REUNION KONON.

begaya seja la.. HA HA HA HA HA HAHA HAH AH HA!!!!

ADA LINE SUDA. ADA SUDA INTERNET

jadi sakai saya dpt internet di LD nih..

babi..babi. babi..

LAHAD DATU.

1. JALAN RAYA BANYAK LONGKANG. (ntah gaya apa buat longkang tgh jalan..)
2. MATI KARAN BERABAD2. (klu lambat bayar bill bising..dorang kasi mati smpi 1 hari x apa..babi)
3. INTERNET/LINE RUMAH BEHARI2 TIADA(.mcm saya tinggal dlm utan..bodo betul..system apa kamurang guna ooo??)

kalau tidak bole buat kerja jgn minta puji sanaaa..

saya tidak tau la tanggungjawab siapa..tapi sepa2 la yg bertanggungjawab tu..tolong la..

klu nda bole buat kerja, and setakat mau jaga perut kau seja, bagus kau mampus. (:

ON AIR MANIAC!

did i mention "i love to eat fried chicken.."

i'am sorry for sometimes I forgot.

Really bukan salah kau kalau aku rasa tahik..aku yg bodoh pegi lupa kenapa..

trimas sebab kau masih sabar..and masih tolerate dengan aku yg bengap nih.

mungkin aku patut stop utk honestly show how i feel..

yup. mmg itu lah yg betul. betul dr segi otak yg waras..

tp selama ni aku just ikut hati yg mmg sudah kau ambil..

"bila aku ckp aku suka mkn ayam goreng, and selalu mintak ayam goreng kau..sah kau tau aku mmg suka mkn ayam goreng..tp bila satu hari aku bangun and aku sudah tidak ckp aku suka lagi and aku tidak mintak lagi..jgn anggap aku sudah tidak suka..mungkin cuma sebab perut aku sakit and aku kena sabar sementara.."

OH!! (;

ULCER. yes..sakit nya mulut saya..

rambut suda mau panjang..PLKN. baru mau aktif band..PLKN. mau jln2 pegi kk tgk com..PLKN. mau tgk Asking Alexandria..PLKN. BABI.

bila hanya tahu cari salah..

kau celup berabis nama org dlm lumpur..

kau cecah tahik lagi..

apa2 la yg dengan dia tu mmg sial lah bagi kau.

aku tau la kau panas gila babi sama dia..tp yg kau mau bagitau aku kenapa?

mls aku ni mau judge kamu..teda urusan

pikir lah sendiri..jgn just pndi becakap..bosan betul aku.

cakap itu ini..tapi sama jak

igt aku kisah ka sepa betul sepa salah?

urusan aku ka tu?

kamu 10 tahun ka?

jgn la jadi budak kecik yg bodohnya melampau..tolong ya?

SEBARANG PERTANYAAN MENGENAI PLKN TIDAK AKAN DILAYAN. HARAP MAKLUM.

macbeth..ELLIOT/MATTHEW?? OPINION!! comment or shoutbox.

Best kan klu matik karan dari jam 7 mlm smpi tgh hari? bole jadi begini..

HA HA HA! marah si boy2.

Aku main FIFA sama kwn aku..di cyber..

sememang nya bising lah mulut kami. hahahah!

memaki sana sini..

tiba2 ada org bikin muka mcm tetelan tahik..

punya lama dia tgk kami..mcm mau mengamuk dia.

ketawa aku tgk dia punya mukak. hahahahahaha..

tu laaaa..len kali online di library klu mau senyap.

muahahahaha..

hari hujan..eh salah..HARI-HARI hujan.

uih..mcm mau jadi suda oo..

sedap2 suda mau skate..matahari cerah habis!

sekali jam 4, hujan dtg..tiba2!! itu oke lagi..

x smpi 5 minit berenti dia..ada semangat lagi balik..4.30 kunu mau skate la..

4.15 lepak suda minum teh tarik..sementara tgu rmi org dtg..

siok2 mcm begitu hujan U-TURN lagi..

ntah berapa jam tu hujan di sini..lepas tuh petang seja dia di sini..

bes..sesuai.. haih..harap2 la esok tidak hujan..

amiiin. (:

KORTA KIRNABARLU.

sepa suru awal tidur. wakakakakakaka

;D

tahan mata..tkt di gbr tem tidur. hahahaha!!

redha. dia suka betul sama katil..dia di kk di katil jak.

bongok. hahaha!

oke yg ini..sudah nyata bangang nya oke? tgk jak la idung dia. HA HA HA!!!

okee..

tujuan utama pegi buat permohonan di UiTM..everything went well.

stay dekat Asia City Hotel..senang mau jln pegi Cp..warisan..wawasan..senang amek bas pegi 1b. ;D

sempat jumpa angy..afizah..and kwn2 dia.. tgk wyg rmi2 and main game saja..di cp. (:

tgk muvi sucker punch..

then..skatepark..skate skate skate..mana bole tinggaaaaal!

hahahaha. yg best tuh pulang dr skatepark jalan kaki..

bayangkan la tuh..Kompleks Sukan ke Asia City. JALAN KAKI!

pergh!! sandi..tp siok la.haha.

byk lagi la stupidity yg tercetus..tp mls mau cerita semua lah..

its our story..u'll know some..we'll know all of it. haha. (:

OH ya!! otw pulang LD, aku naik bas sandakan..land sana spend some time..lepak saja..and half an hour later..aku naik bas pulang Ld.. (:

one of the best hour..i had.

I'll tell the stories while there later..

okeh.. damn.. kenapa x ada studio di ld..?
okeh..
x apa lah.

hahaha! badut abad 20.

hahah! kolar tegak seh! macho laaa..kereta bapak kasi lagi..

wakakakakakaak!

mesti kehidupan dia sunyi sepi nih..

jgn jadi ayam..

Kalau dia nda mau sama kau lepas apa yg kau suda buat..

kau biar jak la..kau sudah buat apa yg patut..mungkin mmg bukan utk kau..

redha jak la..mcm nama kau juak. (;

sakit tu mmg la..aku bole ckp just..relax..

mungkin dia nda baik utk kau..tgk jak la..klu betul la dia tu so called "baik"..

teda teda la dia mau bagi kau harapan mcm sah sukak gila babi dgn kau..tiba2 bedrama jak..

hahaha! R.E.LA.X! ;D

tampar menampar di Bangkok.

still in Bangkok, Thailand..on9 guna wifi hotel..

lots of photo i took here..(i think so..) but i'll upload them as soon as i was home!

(:

kwn saya yg gundut + puti + bulu sama kwn saya yg itam + petak + geriting, saya rindu suda mau tampar leher kamu..kamu pun rindu suda kan maw kenak tampar?

I just love waking up on a bright day.

to see the sun shine through the window..

..alhamdulillah to have the chance to appreciate His creation..

(:

You.

I still remember how we start..

u make me feel okay.

(:

Seharian Aku Di Rumah.

• tanam bunga.. -,-
• kemas bilik..
• kemas baju..
• tgk tv..
• tidur..
• peanut butter..maggie..keropok..milo..oat..(wuishhh..byk nya aku lahap..)
• begusti sama kucing..Kiki namanya. hahah!

Can I Go Already?

Tawaran untuk sambung belajar bila ya?!!

Oi gila bosan terus gini..

Panggil la saya ni pergi sambung study bha!! Saya bosan gila babi suda ni..

Nasib la 3 hari lagi..yeah! maksud aku pegi Bangkok..wuuu..

excited gila..

Pulang dari sana mungkin 11hb Mac..pulang jak aku mau kerja di restoran family! ;D

ya ya..sementara tunggu PLKN..

jadi kurang jugak la bosan aku kan..

HO HO HO!

Legend Of The Guardians.

A very great story..

plus i'am the kind who love to see birds flying with their wings..

just so free..

So, this just boost me up.

Enough of it..This is it. (:

I'll mark a dot in the end of this entry..

that means the end of problems talking..or problem thinking..

fuckin hate this though..

okay so here it is..

;D

.

kepala aku sekarang..Aku tidak suka.

Tiada dalam nature aku mau bengong2, sakit kepala pikir masalah..

bukan aku lah tu mau murung 24jam pikir bukan2..

lately mcm itu lah saya..

Bila punca nya pun aku tidak tau..

mau buat apa? abaikan saja la..

biar masa yg padamkan..heheh.

Oh ya! 26hb ni aku pegi K-HELL(KL)..dr sana pegi Bangkok..

Sure thing aku update ttg apa yg jadi disana. ;D

O.R.A.N.G

kenapa suka sibuk pasal masalah org lain?

tidak salah klu dari sudut ingin membantu..tidak salah klu niat ingin mengambil pengajaran.

Tapi yang kau sibuk mcm burung kakak tua bla bla bla belah sana bla bla bla belah sini pahal?

maksud aku..bila jiran dia buat hal..

satu dunia dia mau kecoh.

apa tujuan? mau kasi malu org ya?

apa lah kau dpt? kenak puji lah klu begitu?

sedap2 ckp pasal taik org lain..taik dia sendiri belum flush..

hahahaha!

okeh..

apa hal la entry aku ni marah2 segala kan?

tapi memang begitu lah O.R.A.N.G

see yah next post! ;D

Masa Depan Yang CERAH!

Post kali ni adalah tentang aku! Ini adalah posting tentang aku dan aku saja!

Masa depan..apa yg bahaya sangat dengan itu?

oke lah..aku curahkan sikit idea masa depan aku..

1. Aku mahu sambung belajar di Kota Kinabalu. Aliran kedoktoran, undang2, atau perladangan.
2. Sebelum umur aku 25 aku mahu cari kerja di Kota Kinabalu. Hidup sendiri dengan duit sendiri. Tidak bermaksud aku akan abaikan keluarga aku. (:
3. Aku mahu ambik degree in music.
4. Aku mahu bukak butik/toy's store/game shop. Asal ada bisnes utk tidak hanya bergantung pada kerja.
5. Sebelum umur aku 38, aku mahu berhenti kerja..kelilingi dunia..dan hidup seperti seorang manusia.

Ya..itu lah planning yg aku sudah buat.

Tapi aku x fikir sangat pun..

Kan aku dah ckp dah..FUCK THE FUTURE!!

;D

MULUT PEDAS GUA.

HA HA HA!!

Kau ada tujuan hidup?

atau kau just ikut apa makhluk dlm TV tu buat?

hahahahahahah!! Weyh..dunia ni bukan LD jak..

Confirm org2 mcm kau ni..maksud aku sekutu2 kau tuh..confirm x pernah jejak luar LD..

kan? kan? kan?

Seriously lucu..bodoh..kebudak2kan..tidak bertamadun..sampah..

Bila industri filem Malaysia akan mengubah genre mereka ya?

Lately movie tempatan kita just..Kereta2..Motor2..Tumbuk2...

Bukan la x best..aku pun terpana jugak depan TV layan movie orang kita nih..

Dah ada aura dah..

Tapi kan..makin byk movie mcm tu..makin byk makhluk bangang terpengaruh..

X tau la area lain..tapi di sini..tempat aku menetap ni..

..dah ramai dah Farid Kamil..

hahahaahahahahahahah!

Makhluk2 ni..berusaha sedaya upaya mereka utk menunjukkan keFaridKamilan mereka..

bangang..org tu just buat kerja dia la..xda la dia nak hidup dengan motor buruk dia mcm dlm filem yg korang tgk tu..bodoh..

X bosan ka hidup mcm binatang?

ya..binatang la tuh..salah sikit..gigit..salah sikit..cakar..

lebih2 lagi bila nampak mangsa..terus panggil satu species dia ajak baham ramai2..

hahaha! seriously..

OI BANGUN LAAAA..KAU TU ORANG. TOLONG LAH.

HIDUP LAH MCM ORG.

BINATANG PUN KETAWAKAN KAU.

klu kau rasa dengan masyarakat selain makhluk kau tu takut dekat kau..

kau silap besar weyh..

bukan takut..tapi malas..

Sebab tabiat kau mcm org dari zaman purba..bukan yg berumur sekitar kau jaa..

yg dah xlama mati pun sama..sibuk nak jaga species dia tuh..konon demi maruah..

MARUAH HOTAK LANCAU KAU.

kau lah satu species yg x berhak ckp pasal maruah..

kau anggap dunia ni kau punya..kau anggap kau selalu betul.

Bukan mau kutuk kau..

tapi memang begitu lah kau..bodoh + sampah + tiada tamadun + binatang + sakai.

Ada lagi satu yg boleh buat aku pecah perut ketawa..

ada sesetengah dari species tu..mungkin diorang ni yg digelar ALPHA MALE la kali ya?

diorang berlagak modern..HA HA HA!! padahal otak berfungsi mcm otak babi..

Species ni bukan jahat..tapi bodoh..itu saja..

kebodohan mereka tuh melampau..mcm aku ckp tadi kalah binatang..

hahaha!

"Cerita Diatas hanya cerita rekaan..jika ada kesamaan nama..

tidak disengajakan. Harap Maaf. ;D

Sama macam bagi gula2 dengan budak kecik yang menangis.

Sama saja..

bila ada anak kecil merengek2 menangis minta gula2..

susah kan mau pujuk?

Paling senang bagi jak la tu gula2..kita x rugi apa2 jugak..gigi dia jugak yg buruk nti..

hahah! why i lived here..why here..

never thought i said this..

CAN'T WAIT FOR PLKN!!!!

really..dengan situasi yg berhaba ni..

situasi dimana..

bila kita lawan..menang atau kalah itu tidak selesaikan apa2..

hujung nya nti..kita tetap kalah..

situasi yang sangat tidak adil.

Malas mahu ckp pasal masalah mcm ini..buang masa dan menambah fikiran saja.

Tapi betul2 rasa mahu pergi jauh..

tidak dekat dengan makhluk2 ini lagi..yg ketandusan tamadun.

You always be the one who hear my fear..my problems. You knew almost all of my secrets. But I wonder who listen to yours? If u could just let me..

O LA LA!! OO YEAH!

pegi hantar barang adik si papai di SM. TEKNIK LD.

papai tu naaa yg driving tuh.

D.I.Y

Bukan saja pada penghasilan lagu..atau pakaian..

It brings the meaning of standing on our own feet..

And teaches us to be more responsible and understand this world we're living in..

Let's not talk about the past.. (:

never ever told a lie..never made up stories..never blame others..never take granted on them..u just might lose it all.

He's Into Something Terrible

It happen in front of my eyes.

They hit him and made him kiss the ground.

he broke his spectacles..

and all i could do is to guard him not to fight back..

send him home..

Ask for apology on his site..

And today everyone point their finger on me..saying i'am the cause he was hit..

But what can i do..i'am at fault..

i don't even know what i did wrong.

funny isn't it..while i'm out in the cold..asking for forgiveness for him..

the other were stabbing me on the back....

hahahah!

Bangun2 pagi.

Bila fon suda bising..

Alarm..jam 9..

Snooze lagi..10 minutes..

and another 10 minutes...

and another..

till its 10.30 am.

Oke..suda bangun..tangan mencapai mp3. Mulanya dengar lagu Animal by Neon Tree.

Tapi mungkin tiada mood pagi di situ..so terus dengan Bulletproof Love by Pierce The Veil.

Masih tidak terlayan..terus lagi dengan All I Want by ADTR..

Kinda oke suda sikit..up2 suda..sikit la..

Then aku set mp3 on shuffle..and tekan next..

24 Years by Caliban..

YEAAAAH!!!

terus headbang sendiri2 di bilik..yg sudah disinari cahaya pagi..

hahahahahahahahah!!!

headbang punya headbang..lagu pun habis..mood pun kembali bertenaga..

and berjaya mengumpul kekuatan utk mandi.. (:

Thanks to Caliban sekarang saya sudah mandi..dan berjaya menempuhi siang yg payah.

HO HO HO!!