sitting in silent. moving my fingers all over the keyboard.

i was unable to sleep tonight.. i decided to listen to this song from her blog Be My Only..dunno by who. The lyrics was just what i wanna say to you. How everyday i pray we'll be good together, to grow old together, to have our hands holding each other till its boneless, to love till its the end of world.

Angela, yes i'am so afraid of losing you. I hate goodbyes. I hate it when you have to say it.

Yes i love you. No matter how many thousand times i told, it can't show how..i guess i'll just have to show for the rest of my life.

Anytime when i was upset, moody or sad..and you came dancing in my head, it seem to be ok. Really..it feels like everything is going to be ok. I never felt this before though i've love before..but with you, the presence of this feeling was just positively weird. (:

Remember our dream.. what we shared.. remember our dream..remember us. i love you Angela Ooi Poh Chin.

-your smelliest socks <3

Saya dan Dia.

ini kisah pasal saya dan dia. (:

satu hari yang bosan dan biasa aku lalu, on Fb. Aku buka wall dia (terjumpa dari kwn lama). Dia goodlooking and attract aku tapi aku anggap just the looks sebab..ya laa..cantik kan mustahil lah aku boleh tefikir mau tackle dia terus.. hahaha. So, aku try approach dia.."hi!!" aku cakap..tapi dia terus off9.. begitu lah hampir berminggu2. Then sampai ke hari yang dia mula balas aku..aku pun "hehehehehhhh" then after weeks just talking through the computer, aku rasa mau jumpa dia. ntah apa la kan tiba2 mau jumpa la pulak..

Then aku minta number dia..dgn niat yang just mau something else than just fb chat. hahaha. And perasaan yang sama mau jumpa dia jugak!! after months, aku decide utk figure out apa benda ni..and just maybe aku suka dia..JUST MAYBE.

Sampai lah satu hari tu..dia hilang..

aku jadi bingung..blurr..and tidak tenang..

and i guess yea i don't wanna lose this girl.

suka dia ka? ntah la..tapi..mau dia dekat saja..

after a month dlm dilema, aku bagitau dia..aku suka dia. Tapi macam tu ja lah. Ignored. Sedih la tapi apa la kan..just suka, bukan apa pun. haha.

We get closer each day, my feeling grows. She seem to like me too. Tapi dia never mention.

Habis SPM, aku ke KK. Dgn kawan2 aku dengan tujuan attending interview UiTM dan terjumpa dia! (speechless, she's beautiful..) we get to watch movie, play arcade and hang out for a while.. and yea I'am so sure i like her.

Weeks after that, aku pergi sandakan jumpa dia lagi. dr ptg sampai ke mlm dgn dia..and i remember at Balin, on the rooftop..slices of pizza and drinks, aku rasa sejuk..macam mau demam. I took her hand and i lie my head on a pillow wanting to feel the comfort. I hole her hand till we're in a car and i drive back to my place and she went off..i guess i want her..yea..i want her.. im just not that sure why..

A week before pegi PLKN di Tawau, aku pegi Sandakan lagi, mau jumpa dia. Its a 4 days of summer. We watch movie, driving to nowhere, walking on the busy streets..all i see is her. And the day utk aku pulang ke Ld pun tiba..i was waiting for the bus utk jalan and sementara tu aku duduk di bus stop dgn dia where i hold her hand..for the first time she hold mine back.

i love you.. (but i'm not sure if thats what u want from me..)

The night before aku pegi plkn..we had a very long talk through the phone..she told me..she likes me too..i was the happiest guy ever since.

3 weeks di plkn, UiTM panggil aku..after a month di UiTM, dia sambung study..di CosmoPoint. Aku dan dia hangout during free times, and the night aku propose dia, dia nangis and speechless. Aku takut untuk dgr tidak..and rush myself to the bus..rasa hancur, rasa loser, rasa bodoh..then through the phone she say yes..rasa hebat, rasa bibir aku dr telinga ke telinga.. (:

Hey! the story aren't end yet..she loves me. She wants me too. Appreciating that, and the love we shared, i'am loving her too..till now..and after. (: i love you.

i love you Angela. (: