i really wanted to..

just if i have a wings..
just if i could teleport and go wherever i want to..

it would be where u are. (=

none is excepted..

everyone change..
i know it..u know it..they know it.
cause i've changed..u've changed..and they've changed..

but still, we do have the choice to change or stay the same..
and for me..i ain't gonna be the same.

being fuckin'ly stupid for the second time..
nope i ain't gonna let that. (=

and i thought nobody would let it..

just as everything around..
u and i have changed..

something in my head..

sometimes, i sit alone and thought is there a place where its only me i should care about..
is there a place where i can do what i want and noone can stop me..
is there a place where i can run to..head to the rooftop and scream anything i like..such "yeahaa~!" maybe "IM ALIVE" cuz i know that moment that i really do..
is there a place where its ok live without cash..without car..just living the days as it is..
nothing to care about as everything will last.

as i open these eyes..i know this is not the life i didn't mean that its sucks
but this world now..its not how its supposed to be.
the people outside there are just ruin..
inhuman..
beast..
they wear shiny shoe..have shiny hair..
carry a briefcase around all the time..
driving big shining cars..
i don't see them as people who are success. sorry but this is my thoughts so just fuckin swallow it k?

i see them as what i said before..beast..inhuman..robots.
i wann live this life..this short life as myself..
being stupid..dummy..fucked up kid with a dream to live a low life..

sometimes i thought that big house..big car..thick wallet..rich and famous is what i wanted..
but when i think twice..thats not how it was supposed to be..and i just wanted to be as what will be..just me.

i don't wanna set my future.. shout me in the face..but thats my thought..
i'm not gonna set my future..

I'm not a fuckin loser..

ugh..my head is fo fuckin aching..

just get up from sleep..

hey hey..its November..

and i have 22 days left to prepare for Spm..

and still, here i'am talking about this war in my head..

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